At home Geoffrey went straight to the laptop in their bedroom. Thank God neither Esperanza nor Nicola was in the house. He settled with his feet up on the bed and the laptop in front of him. Catherine sat beside him. Geoffrey found a website. Pick\u2019s Disease. It sounded so unscientific. Symptoms. He read for a few minutes then stopped. There it was in black and white just as the consultant had told them. Overeating. Wandering. Lack of inhibition. And that was just stage one.<\/p>\n
He realised he had been holding his breath while reading. He inhaled, coughed and burst into tears. He put his head on Catherine\u2019s shoulder.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat about a cuppa?\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
Geoffrey groaned, laid the laptop on the bed and went down stairs. Thankfully, there was still no sign of Esperanza in the kitchen. When he came back with a tray of two mugs and a packet of plain chocolate digestives, he saw Catherine scrolling down the website page.<\/p>\n
\u201cSymptoms: Overeating with a predilection for sweet things.<\/em>\u201d She grinned at\u00a0the packet of biscuits. \u201cBetter have two then, hadn\u2019t I?\u201d She held out her hand. \u201cEcholalia.<\/em>\u201d What does that mean?\u201d<\/p>\n Geoffrey put the tray on the dressing table, opened the packet of biscuits and\u00a0handed one to Catherine. She wolfed it down in a couple of bites and held out her\u00a0hand for another.<\/p>\n \u201cRepeating things,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n \u201cRepeating things,\u201d said Catherine.<\/p>\n Geoffrey looked at her. Was she being funny? He took a gulp of tea and sat\u00a0beside her on the bed.<\/p>\n \u201cDifficulty organising diary and appointments.<\/em>\u201d Catherine sounded triumphant. \u201cThat\u2019s why it was impossible at work, even with Jilly\u2019s help!\u201d<\/p>\n She continued scrolling, munching her way through a second biscuit. There was chocolate smeared on her lips. She stopped, biscuit half way to her mouth. Her voice shook as she read the next line:<\/p>\n \u201cPrognosis: \u201cFatal, average survival rate from onset: eight to ten years.<\/em>\u201d She turned and looked at Geoffrey who grabbed the laptop and slammed it shut.<\/p>\n \u201cHow long do you think I\u2019ve got?\u201d<\/p>\n The doctor had said he had no way of telling when the deterioration had started. Geoffrey tried to remember the first time Catherine seemed odd. Were some of her behaviours over the last year mistakes or symptoms? She was still staring at him. Her face closed. He had expected her to cry. He was surprised how calmly she had taken the news.<\/p>\n \u201cA flattening of affect\u201d was another of the symptoms. Was this what that meant? Had Catherine turned into a kind of Mr Spock?<\/p>\n Geoffrey took her hand. \u201cLook,\u201d he said, trying to keep the tremble out of his own voice. He must be strong for her sake. \u201cThese websites, they can only report averages. Each patient is unique…\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019m a patient? Will I have to stay in hospital?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cNot now, not ever,\u201d Geoffrey corrected himself, \u201cIf I have any say in it.\u201d<\/p>\n Mustn\u2019t scare her. In fact it would be better if she knew as little as possible.<\/p>\n \u201cWe\u2019ll make the most of our time…up here, have some trips…\u201d<\/p>\n He couldn\u2019t help it; the tears were streaming down his face. Catherine leant over him and wiped a few away with her fingers, leaving sticky chocolate marks on his skin. She stood up and stared out of the window for a few minutes.<\/p>\n \u201cGeoffrey. I need to tell you something. It\u2019s really important. You must listen.\u201d<\/p>\n Geoffrey blew his nose on his handkerchief and tidied it back into his jacket pocket. The evening sun was dipping behind the yew tree in the garden next door. The noise of the traffic had died down. Catherine returned to the bed, sat down and picked at the pattern on the bedspread. \u201cI have a child, a daughter. I must see her before I die. You must help me.\u201d<\/p>\n Geoffrey sighed and pulled her close to him. \u201cDarling, it\u2019s all right. I understand.\u201d<\/p>\n Catherine pulled away and searched his face. \u201cYou do? I thought with everything that you said about not wanting children, about how they were hostages to fortune…\u201d<\/p>\n Geoffrey put his finger against her lips and shook his head. \u201cCatherine, it\u2019s just part of the disease. Patients, I mean people, make things up, they, what did the website say? They \u2018confabulate<\/em>\u2019.\u201d<\/p>\n Catherine stood up. The room was darkening now and Geoffrey couldn\u2019t see her face against the window.<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019m not confab, fabuling, or whatever the bloody word is. When I was seventeen I had a baby. I gave her up for adoption. It\u2019s true. 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